This coming from Damini, in the presence of Satish,
made my ears burn. Satish, with a tremor in hisvoice, said: Damini, will you listen
to me?
That is why, when Satish came up, I had to feel
ashamed. YetI cannot help blessing you when I see your face.
Satish went to the Masters chamber, and fell to
tendinghis feet with fervour.
I somehow felt that the Swami was pleased to have
me here.
The other women disciples were aghast at Daminis
ways.
Whenever the Swami visited Calcutta he hadstayed
with Shivatosh. Nor could I make up mymind to desert Satish.
That, argued Satish, was the freedom on shore.
Jagamohan fixed a date for their first talk together. Daminis heart, thinks he,does
not yet respond to the call of the ethereal heights. But, allthe same, I have no
patience with a man who can thrust out his legs atyou like that.
Thatis why my Master keeps me bound to his service.
It does not sound so bad, I admitted,the way you put it. It does not sound so bad, I
admitted,the way you put it.
Where the noose of Maya is so glaringlyobvious, why
be foolhardy enough to take risks? It is necessary to relate Daminis previous
history. When Damini has to own defeat,her surrender will be absolute.
Noni clasped his hand and said:Baba, I want your
blessing to-night.
Daminis eyes flamed up as she cried: Why do I stay?
She fights shyof Satish because for him her feelings are of the oppositedescription.
Daminis eyes flamed up as she cried: Why do I stay? What made it more difficult
stillwas that he harboured a secret fear of his ward. Srivilas Babu haspromised to
look out for a nice big hamper to keep it in.
We had come to be his chief disciples, and he would
have usconstantly near his person. Damini whisked out of the room without waiting
for furtherquestioning.
She fights shyof Satish because for him her
feelings are of the oppositedescription. Satish, trembling from head to foot with a
nameless fear, fled fromthe room.